I’ve done it, you’ve done it…infact lets be honest we probably still do it every day and many of us haven’t even consciously acknowledged it yet. We start something new like a project or pick up a new hobby, make plans for the future all the while telling ourselves the story that we want it but the truth is,we feel as if we have to do it, like it’s almost like a compulsion rather than something that genuinely makes us feel good.
Ask yourself is this really what you really want?…really?
You may be thinking well how can I differentiate between what I truly desire and a desperate compulsion? My answer to you is how does it make you feel? Are you inspired? For me I sometimes feel this burning sense of inspiration where all i want to do is write, write and write, express my emotions and thoughts but of course the dreaded writer’s block happens…i feel the strong energy but not the idea. My reaction these days is to just write it out anyway, whatever sparks interest. Anything. Anything at all. When I start the ideas just flow like a stream. Thinking too much will kill the vibe.
II’ll be the first to admit I don’t have a supportive family in the sense that they never pushed me but it is in my spirit to do what I love and excel because when you feel passionate you automatically do your very best. Even though I went through a phase of hopelessness, depression and consequently apathy..which to be honest I still sometimes have apathetic moments…even though for the most part I definitely have much more motivation than ever before these days so don’t worry..depression days are looonng gone. 🙂
I have recently come to a new realisation. The reason why certain things I have attempted to do in the past have not come to fruition was because I did it from a space of desperation not love and joy. I felt like I had no talent or direction so I essentially made myself try new things…everything was attempted half heartedly. I dipped my toes in the waters…just about.
I am here to ask you today what is the point in doing anything if it doesn’t even make you feel good? I am learning to catch myself in the moments where I am attempting to kid myself and tell myself the story that I am actually enjoying what I am doing in my life at that particular moment when really inside I’d much rather be elsewhere. Infact I promise myself the moment I stop finding something exciting is the moment I will literally drop it like a hotcake.
For once I feel fulfilled, I am blogging and actually enjoying it. I love the whole blogging experience, not just writing but reading other people’s amazing posts. I love connecting with bloggers and yes I truly feel as if us writers are like minded in the sense that we feel this hunger to express our true and authentic selves in words. It is creativity and feeling a connection with others through that is a wonderful thing.
So that’s how I’ve been feeling lately. 🙂
Hope someone can resonate with this post, thank you for taking the time to read.
All the loves,