Category Archives: moments

Thrown away the key

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On the edge of atrophy,

rampant revolution with the sea breeze,

brewing in the air,

the mist, beware.

We no longer have a care,

for the now frozen lakes far off in another galaxy,

the little people are free

weeds surround the beautiful sweet flowers that breathe,

life into the ether as between the lines we read,

grow, uproot, resist, feed,

through perpetual death and rebirth on the shores of grand rising we bleed,

transformative, awakening from the haze,

fires blaze,

as seasons change

earthy, watery an elemental stage,

passage through the malaise,

wounds cut open and the memories fade,

escape,

it’s too late and we can no longer wait,

sitting ducks and enslaved,

You may have thrown away the key,

but this you did not foresee.

Faatima

x

 

I wanted to…

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I wanted to be free

…free of delusion

Illusion

Mental seclusion.

So I opened the curtains

Let in the streaming rays of sun.

You caught me off guard

free of the facade.

In a stasis

Tense, caught up and far away from all this.

In the end I had to let go

…and just go with the flow.

It was only when life got me by surprise

…that I finally realised…

Love,

Faatima

Xx

Stay

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We want to preserve that feeling of bliss.. of floating on cloud nine,

Adrenaline high

Please stay

The hollow, the scary, the lack.. all finally filled up,

a tranquil calm ensues…a certainty, the letting go of all the unwanted and solidly painful stumbles life has had in store for us and that possibly await us in the oh so distant, intangible, fractured future…

Why does it matter now?

Any of it?

Past and future collide into an inconceivable, disfigured mess…buried away in the unconscious

It all comes backs at some point.

All it takes is a trigger and we’re off…

Distraction worked last time

Disconnected, never present…untouchable…facade

but what do you do when it wears off?

You realise you can’t escape the foundations that build your life because you carry them everywhere you go, they are reflected in every person you meet, experience you have…

It’s a practice, it takes time, you grow wise…wiser still.

Suddenly the excitement is back and then the bliss and even more than that… insight.

Even better than last time

…because this time it’s not a product of distraction…

It’s not conditional.

You carry it with you through every experience and every person you meet is a reflection of that..

It’s there regardless..

Nothing is the same

Everything is constantly changing and evolving..

You are a part of everything

Beg nothing and no one to stay

Love,

Faatima

Xx

Until then

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Until then…

I keep attracting into my experience, a state of limbo…list of things to do but only when this one obstacle is out of the way first…

So I write it out and simply put it to rest…until then

In the mean time what is there to do?

My reflection is blatantly staring back at me but my perception blinds me

I see the glass as half empty…it needs a refill I think.

I fumble behind this curtain

For so long…so very long.

I refuse to escape…until eventually it falls all by itself.

Wait what?

Oh…I get it.

There is no ‘until then’ I realise.

Suddenly I am back where I am meant to be and even this experience becomes valuable.

Yes…this completely unmagical…momentary, brief, monontonous, grey scale….passing experience is everything…

Be there, be still.

Love,

Faatima

Xx